This dragon tree symbolizes for me the dragon that still lives within me. Fortunately, after many years of prayer, counseling, and willpower, my dragon comes to life only once in a great while. When life and/or people (usually people) get to me, sometimes the dragon will rear its ugly head and breathe fire for a little while. It's not pretty and it's not pleasant for me or anyone else around. Afterward, I suffer from guilt and shame and just plain exhaustion.
We all have inner dragons, no matter how "holy" we think we've become. It's the human, reptilian part of our brain that gets fired up (pardon the pun) and lashes out in anger, rage, and fury. It often follows a disappointment, unmet expectation, letdown, or some other form of frustration.
When it comes out, what do we do? Like most challenges, there is no magic formula--contrary to what some new age gurus would gladly sell you and tell you. Self-examination followed by meditation in the Silence takes some time--and it works. Of course, the ultimate solution would be to eliminate the dragon completely once and for all--a noble purpose. But it has been my experience that this type of spiritual growth takes some time and practice, and then it also takes more time to transfer to our physical reactions and responses. When it still occurs, we have to forgive ourselves for not yet acting perfectly in this world. We have to let the dragon off the hook....and pray for its healing.
Holy Spirit, let me remember that it may take some time to align my human reactions to my spiritual nature. In the meantime, let me heal myself through prayer and forgiveness.